Assalamualaikum wbt
Been a while i tink? Yupe.... Well, here I am again. I'm 36 weeks pregnant... Waiting for my precious to come.. :) Yehaaaaaaaaa... But I do feel quite afraid.. Just hope that everything's gonna be OK...
Speaking abt 'what could be worst?'... Too many things and secrets revealed during my pregnancy.. I have to keep on moving on with my life I guess..??
It's not easy to be what I am now.. Siapa sangka benda yang paling aku takuti actually... I'm facing it now...
Above all, alhamdulillah... parents mertua ... (mak & ayah) already know abt our marriage... I know it's my fault in the 1st place... mungkin aku terlalu sayangkan husband... I trusted every words that he told me before...
Although it's not easy, and quite awkward... At last I know one more biggest secret ever, reason Y i was not introduced to ayah & mak... Allahuakhbar... He's the greatest and from Him only I am able to gain strength to move on with this life...
Siapa tak takut dengan tohmahan? Siapa tak takut yang orang akan sangka aku yang bukan2? Aku hanya mampu berserah... our marriage life is already 2 yrs plus.. and I've been thru a lot...
Drama Nur Kasih TV3 buat aku terkilan and tertunggu2 setiap siarannya... Aku bukan Nur, tapi aku jugak bukan Katrina... tapi aku adalah kedua-duanya... Sometimes I'm like Nur, and sometimes I'm like Katrina... sukar untuk digambarkan... tapi apa yang dh tertulis dan termaktub utk diriku, aku terima.. aku pasrah...
Kalau bukan kerana aku betul2 menyintainya... kerana dialah yang aku harapkan utk membimbing aku... aku mungkin sudah pergi jauh sekarang... But what will I get in the end? I've given thought about this thing, luckily I'm taking my unpaid leave waiting for my baby to come out from my belly... hahaha... and luckily my baby showed me the strength that if my baby can live through my hard times, why should I back off with my life? I should move on and my baby teaches me a lot...
Baby, mama really loves you and tell papa that mama loves him so much too.... :)
If some1 ask me what is the thing that I had sacrificed for this LOVE, my husband is the right person to answer this question.
I was opening my old pendrive and looking back our past, the times we had together...
I just hope that he is able to be fair to both of us... Although I've never met his parents, and 'akak'... I'll pray for the happiness of him and his family.
Akak, ayah, mak, Dian nak mintak maaf... If I had known, I wouldn't do this... I will never hurt anybody's feeling...
Will always love you hubby... By terlalu sayangkan hubby... By x tahu... walaupun orang slalu mengata, by tak pernah nak ambik pedulik.. tapi itulah kenyataan and by harus terima di Aidilfitri yang lalu... akhirnya by dpt ketenangan hati walaupun kadang2 di landa perasaan cemburu... tapi by berserah..
Take care all...
Love,
Dian
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