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Baru semalam kita menyambut tahun baru Awal Muharram, tahun Islam, tahun yang sepatutnya kita set apa2 jua azam yang kita hendak kecapi, namun, ianya berlalu bagaikan sesuatu yang tiada kaitan pada diri kita sendiri. Akhirnya semua seperti tiada apa.
Aku seperti biasa, macam ni lah. Keadaan tetap sama. Kadang2 terleka dengan things which moves around me. 2008, for me is a tough year, and I had been reminded many many times that 2009 will be much tougher and sounds like the toughest year ever will be. I do feel afraid of time, I do feel too worried over everything. Life sounds crazy when we don't want it to be.
I hadn't make any preparations for this year thru. I've never made any resolution, till now end of the year. I was wondering what actually I want in my life. I was comparing my life with all my friends, which I finally found I'm just feeling bad about myself in the end. I wanted to stop thinking about it, what I have is much more precious than them, I had always reminded myself about it. Sometimes I could even feel the lacking of it, but I prefered to keep quiet and follow the flows.
2008 - I had been bad. I had been married at the same year, I had been shifted to so many places also at the same year. I had to go thru mental and emotional control many many times, I had to keep on understanding every situation every time. I had been on many movement this year. I had also been very lonely sometimes this year. I hadn't been anywhere yet this year, but I had been at least to 2 places new to myself this year, Kota Kinabalu and Kota Bharu. This year also witness me being a very judgemental person. I had been thinking about things I should have not. A year that full of things that I had never thought off. I am going to leave this things behind, I want to keep beautiful memories inside my head. I was just about to leave it for another tough tough year ahead. Please and please and please, let me free from all of this sickness I've been thru. I just need a simple life. That's all. If I was given more, Alhamdulillah.
Kembali aku seperti biasa. Aku pun tak brapa nak paham dengan keadaan sekarang. Kadang2 rasa tak termampu nak di perkatakan. Kadang2 terasa diri terlalu hina. Doaku sekarang hanyalah untuk aku memperbaiki diri aku dan aku ingin tinggalkan semuanya d belakang.
To be continued....
Baru semalam kita menyambut tahun baru Awal Muharram, tahun Islam, tahun yang sepatutnya kita set apa2 jua azam yang kita hendak kecapi, namun, ianya berlalu bagaikan sesuatu yang tiada kaitan pada diri kita sendiri. Akhirnya semua seperti tiada apa.
Aku seperti biasa, macam ni lah. Keadaan tetap sama. Kadang2 terleka dengan things which moves around me. 2008, for me is a tough year, and I had been reminded many many times that 2009 will be much tougher and sounds like the toughest year ever will be. I do feel afraid of time, I do feel too worried over everything. Life sounds crazy when we don't want it to be.
I hadn't make any preparations for this year thru. I've never made any resolution, till now end of the year. I was wondering what actually I want in my life. I was comparing my life with all my friends, which I finally found I'm just feeling bad about myself in the end. I wanted to stop thinking about it, what I have is much more precious than them, I had always reminded myself about it. Sometimes I could even feel the lacking of it, but I prefered to keep quiet and follow the flows.
2008 - I had been bad. I had been married at the same year, I had been shifted to so many places also at the same year. I had to go thru mental and emotional control many many times, I had to keep on understanding every situation every time. I had been on many movement this year. I had also been very lonely sometimes this year. I hadn't been anywhere yet this year, but I had been at least to 2 places new to myself this year, Kota Kinabalu and Kota Bharu. This year also witness me being a very judgemental person. I had been thinking about things I should have not. A year that full of things that I had never thought off. I am going to leave this things behind, I want to keep beautiful memories inside my head. I was just about to leave it for another tough tough year ahead. Please and please and please, let me free from all of this sickness I've been thru. I just need a simple life. That's all. If I was given more, Alhamdulillah.
Kembali aku seperti biasa. Aku pun tak brapa nak paham dengan keadaan sekarang. Kadang2 rasa tak termampu nak di perkatakan. Kadang2 terasa diri terlalu hina. Doaku sekarang hanyalah untuk aku memperbaiki diri aku dan aku ingin tinggalkan semuanya d belakang.
To be continued....
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