In the memory of my Mom

Assalamualaikum wbt.

It was just another half busy day for me. Nothing much happening around, and missing my husband to the most rite now. I can't just simply sit and do nothing, even for a single sec. It will just made me feeling bad about everything not to do anything. Even for the last few weeks, I had my sleepless nites. Find so hard to sleep even I'm just too tired of everything around me.

$ - as usual had become something that had never been a thing not to worried about! Trying many ways to get as much as I can, my mind can't just stop thinking abt it. Now I finally found the reason y ppl work so hard for it. I just wanted financial freedom, out of the most of everything that I had now. :)

Even last week, almost every nite before I went to bed, I cried. I asked myself, Y, but I couldn't figure it out. Maybe I missed my husband too much? I miss being around him, making him angry wif me, teasing him now and then, I miss seeing him around doing all the houseworks, when I'm preparing myself to go to work. It's not that he don't have any job or what, he's trying to find something here. Trying to find something to do, but NIL - he tried many ways. To all the burden he's been carrying now, I could tell u... it's not that easy. I've been talking to MOM, on the books, where I wrote down everything, it's like I kinda talking to her, wishing that she could hear me. I've only found her few times in my dreams, but I didn't remember any of it. Just that I felt it's like she's still here wif us. Watching us from afar.

There's one thing that made me smile yesterday is that, I've just read the poem made by my Aunty in rememberance of my mom. How she wrote it, I could feel that she really meant every single word that she wrote. She was far away but still remember everything, and she was true every single thing she wrote!

I couldn't find a time for my friends for the time being yet, Emiza n Muhaini. Sorry guys! Just too busy on changing shift, replacing others and today would be the 1st day of my life, that I'll be working, 10hrs daily up to 8 days in a row. On this first day itself, I was kinda TING - TONG ! I don't know whether I can have that energy to stay for 8 days, but I have to.

Yesterday I went grocery shopping with Dad, as he requested the day before. And yeah, I kinda miss that moment so much. Maybe he know that we're a bit apart. And he did ask me about our planning, my husband and me, what are our plans actually. I also don't really know. It's not that I don't care you c... It's just TIME AND MONEY again... That two does get along pretty well don't they?

Well... I got too many things on my mind right now. ~ ~ *sigh*

GTG peeps, chiao!

Loving my husband so much,

Dian Love Muniev :)